List of Things to Think About

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Yay Humbug

No snow. I hate that there's no snow. Sometimes, it feels like Christmas doesn't really exist unless there's a healthy blanket of snow over everything you can see. When I was little, it always snowed, and when it didn't, we would sprinkle glitter in the front yard so that the reindeer could see where to land. As cute as that is, we didn't have to do it often because snow didn't ever want to disappoint us. It came like clockwork, late October or early November, and it was around so long that we were fully ready for Christmas when December 25 made its appearance.

Not that kind of luck this year. But just the thought of Christmas is enough to make anyone excited. Especially me. Especially because so much happens after break that I'm really looking forward to, minus the whole making-up-everything-that-I've-missed thing. I'm just excited about life.

Beauty and the Beast

Is it even possible for me to be more excited that the musical this year is Beauty and the Beast? I really don't think so. I never thought that St. Dominic would be able to afford it, but since it's true, I can't wait until after auditions when rehearsals are in swing. I love Beauty and the Beast so much, it's my favorite movie ever (along with Grease, of course). Here is the list of characters...I can't help thinking about it a lot...

The Enchantress (she puts the spell on the prince)

The Prince/Beast

Belle

Lefou (basically, Gaston's little henchman dude)

Gaston

Three Silly Girls (in love with Gaston)

Maurice (Belle's father)

Cogsworth (the clock)

Lumiere (the candlestick)

Babette (the featherduster)

Mrs. Potts (the teapot)

Chip (the teacup)

Madame de la Grande Bouche (the chest of drawers)

Monsieur D'Arque (the guy who runs the "Maison des Lunes")

Assorted Townspeople and Enchanted Objects

You can make your own guesses as to who they will be. What a game lol.

Non-Optimistically Speaking

It's that time of year again. Christmas present idea-time. What on earth do you get for people? Asking is generally useless. Most people answer with something vague, then ask you the same question, which is totally not what you were looking for at the time. Gah. I really need to have money to buy the presents that no one gives me ideas for, and the lack of it might result in no presents at all. Except not. There goes the babbling.

Basically I can't wait until the weekend. I know I don't go to school that much, but the stress of it is killing me. I need Christmas break really, really badly. I need time to finish up college stuff and to relax for real, without all the pressure of everything.

On a completely different note, I really want to see The Family Stone. Is that sad? No, because it looks cute. So there.

One Shoe, Two Shoe, Old Shoe, NEW SHOE

So. It's almost 5 am, and my insomnia is in full swing. I just finished watching the complete second season of Sex and the City, but I'm still awake, counting down the minutes until I have to get ready for...school. For the first time in forever. And I'm terrified. The thought of it actually makes me physically ill. I feel like so much has happened, and that I'm in such a different place now then I was a few weeks ago...I feel like high school is an old shoe that I've grown out of and am ready to donate to my little sister. It's not even a particularly attractive shoe...maybe it was once in style, but it's so worn that it's probably best to chuck it out and buy a new pair. Something shiny. Or foreign. But...I guess I have to walk around with pinched toes for awhile longer.

Joe suggests just cutting the toe off the shoe and plowing on until May. I say no thank you, but who am I kidding? College seems a million miles away, and I can't just coast until I find a comfortable spot to rest. I need structure, I think. Or else I need room to wiggle around in. It seems that whatever I need is never what I have, with respect to time. I'm a rambling mess, but I'm sure the good ol' blog has missed me, no matter who else hasn't.

I'm going to go frost some Christmas cookies...if I fall asleep my first day back in school, it's because I was obsessing over something that isn't even me anymore.

Where is Me?

I feel like I haven't surfaced in weeks, which is true on some levels. I've been away from school for a long time, so I'm not surprised that things have changed, but it still kind of hit me enough to knock the wind out of me. It seems that, after years of watching everyone around me change (and not always for the better), I've started to change myself. I'm not talking about growing up...lots of people have changed, but seem to have gone backward in maturity...but change in an abstract, wanna-be-concrete way. I feel so lost sometimes, like I've lost control over everything. I wish that things were different. I wish that people cared more than they do, and then when I see my own indifference, I realize it might be for the best. Maybe it's written in the stars somewhere that when I leave for college, it will have to be on my own.