Compose, Shompose

Hmm... I don't have a "compose" button...perhaps it's because I am on a Mac? There are "preview" "abc check" "insert picture" and "recover post" links, but not a "compose." Moving on to happier things...I bought a halloween costume yesterday...It's a devil costume, and absolutely amazing. (And only $24! Bargain!) I will be sure to post pictures on facebook. I guess that's all I really want to write...I feel as if nothing is really new to report...although Tim and I are definately better, so I suppose that is a plus. Natalie, I don't know how you have gone two months. I am in complete awe of you. I remember how hard it was last year going two or three weeks, and I hated it. Huge kudos to both of you. I adore you both. I've decided I'm going to give up on attempting to make paragraphs...so just bear with me in this huge mess. Oh, and Natalie, have I told you that I decided to double major in English, and I think I want to teach high school English (just like Mrs. B.) if journalism falls through or I need a steady job? I couldn't remember if I'd told you that or not... Anyway...I must go back to the Cardinal's game...Go Cards!!

Boo College

Sarah, I am so sorry for everything that is going on with you right now, and I completely understand how you feel. I haven't seen my Joey since August 25. That is exactly two months ago today, and I sometimes forget how happy we were before. We call each other all the time, but usually it's only for a few moments - our schedules conflict so much that it's almost impossible to have a meaningful conversation. It's so, so hard. I hate it.

I know this is a weird topic to follow, but in order to change the font/color and stuff like that, you have to click the 'compose' tab in the right corner of the text box. To make a new paragraph, I click the quotations box, which allows me to start another line down. Hah, so yeah. Woo.

In other news...I am going to Chicago this weekend. It's weird that I'll be so close to all of you, without actually getting to see you. I miss you sooooo much! I really want to show you my school, and my New York! It's so amazing here. Just hard. Really hard. I suck at lit. Apparently, even beloved Mrs. Batenhorst is totally, 100% wrong on a lot of things. Like, you're not supposed to underline titles. Or start with your strongest piece of evidence and work your way down to the weakest. It seems almost like everything I learned in high school is being stomped on, spit on, and flushed down the toilet. I almost question why they make us learn everything just so we can unlearn it all again, and then get looked at as if we're the idiots. Whatever.

Sarah darling, I will send you a message on facebook with my address. Yay presents! Boo school! Heart you all!

I know I have no room to complain. And I know that I should be used to this by now. But I hate long-distance relationships. They suck. That's all. The end. Time to cry. I miss everyone.

Eh...

This is me procrastinating. I hate my film class--especially reading for it. Who needs it? Not me. Oh well... As for me, I'm having trouble grasping this "grown-up" relationship thing. I understand people are not always in good moods. Trust me, I am as emotional as girls come, and I know I must be a royal pain in the butt to deal with at times. Maybe I'm just selfish and naive, but I don't like it when my significant other is in a bad mood. Ok, chalk that up to pure selfishness. I can't help it, but I always feel like it is my fault, and that I need to make it better. It breaks my heart to hang up the phone and know he's not happy. I know it's not ME he's upset/mad/not happy with whatever, but I feel as if I should be able to make that go away. I know he's not directing it at me, but I can tell by the tone in his voice that he's not happy or in a good mood, and I automatically assume it's something I've done, even when I know it's not, and he assures me it's not. I know life is not a basket of sunshine; I know sometimes things just don't go the way you want them to go; I know I'm not going to be able to make everything better, but I still feel like a horrible girlfriend when I can't. I just wish I could make everything better. I don't think I'm quite grasping how I really feel in this post...but I don't know how else to word it. We learned in Psychology today that the female's drive in life (or something like that) is to provide for others (Gilligan's theory or something) and maybe that's just what this is. I just know that I don't feel the same after hanging up the phone when I know he's still upset, but I guess I'm going to have to learn to live with this because I know life isn't all about me, and that sometimes you just need to leave someone alone to let them feel better. I just wish I felt better about myself when I do that because right now I feel like a failure. Ok, maybe that's a little extreme. But you get my drift. PS. Natalie, send me your address because I found your birthday present, and I need to send it to you.

Fake Post...For Real

Oh, the joy that is school. Not.

At least midterms are finally over, and for me, there is a lull in the amount of work to do because of it; I am, however, totally freaking about about my politics midterm because we only have two grades in that class, and I am in the dark as to how my professor grades. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it now.

Well, I was going to write a big long post about everything that has been going on here, but I am sleepy. I know, right? Pathetic. But, I promise there will actually be something worth reading here in the future. Cross my heart and hope to eat cake. Yeah Marie Antoinette...

Love you, mwah mwah.

(Almost) Dead Fish = No Sleep For Sarah

No luck with the Arts Advocates. Whatever, I'm over it. The whole process was stupid (and I'm not just saying this because I didn't get it...It was messed up.) Oh well, I'll move on. It just sucks that everything I want to get involved in doesn't want me back...I'm definately not used to this, and it's not my favorite. Oh well, what can you do? On a lighter note, this past weekend at home was wonderful, and I wish you could have been there, Nataie. I can't wait until we are all home for Christmas. We need to have a MASSIVE girls' night, what do you think? I miss you! I love spending time with everyone at home; it makes me hate coming back to Columbia. But what can I do? Oh, and I randomly saw Mrs. Batenhorst at Target, and it was awesome. I ran up to her and gave her a huge hug! It was great! lol. I've decided if journalism doesn't work out, then I want to be a high school English Lit teacher. I'm going to double major in Journalism and English (well, that's the plan, anyway...I could always settle for a minor if need be.) Anyway, it was great. Until I got back to my dorm... ...And my fish was almost dead!!!!! The idiot that was supposed to feed them while we were gone dumped half the conttainer of food into the tank and left it. The poor fishies looked like they were so full they were about to explode, and to top it all off, the tank REEKED. So there we were, cleaning our fishtank at 2:00 AM. It was fun, let me tell you. So I skipped Bio this morning and slept until noon. It was great. :) Ok, I have to read--yay for quizzes. Oh, and how do you make paragraphs in this here blog? Simply hitting the return button isn't working, and this run-on look just isn't my favorite...

Living the College Life

Kristen, Nicole and I have commandeered the lounge. It's 4:02 am. We're on our computers, completely in hysterics, listening to crazy old Ricky Martin tunes and getting absolutely nothing done. We have midterms all this week. I really need to start my politics reading (and my lit paper and, oh, all of my homework), but tonight is all about this.

I miss you guys and love you all!

Stress, Or Whatever

True or false - Natalie has a hell of a lot of midterms next week. Oh, that's definitely, definitely true. No lies. I've tried to schedule out my work ahead of time so that I don't feel the pressure so much when it comes down to the wire, but I know that there are things that will distract me, so I hope against hope that it will turn out all right.

In other wishes, I miss you guys so much! And Sarah, I hope you got into that Art Advocates thing, that would be awesome. I love you all!