sorry bout the confusing-ness of the photobucket stuff...i fixed it so check it out! http://photobucket.com/albums/y10/DontLookDown567/MyLife/

theres pics of me, natalie, and lindsay on there. so yay! i heart my digital camera soo much. lol.

but i must go now because i am running on like 4ish hours of sleep...must...go...to...sleep...

'night!

Sarah

Disney Movie Night!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope everyone comes that I told about!!! I think its going to be a blast. I hope Natalie comes, I really need to talk to her (or you, if you are reading this!!) I really just wanna see whats going on in your life. You can talk to me. Please do. Anywho!! I'm back for right now!! Study hall is boring as hell, and its finally starting to get really hot outside so I can barely sit still in that hot room!! AHHHHH. Well it was interesting i suppose for the first couple minutes I was actually in the room. Chartrand did a cartwheel, and a round-off and told us he use to be a diver, ( he did actually say, "yes i did stand up on high diving board wearing a speedo!!) Um....... disgusting. So yeah the weekend is coming, and Saturday is first stage crew meeting. I am so unbeleivably excited. I love stage crw. It's amazing. Well lets all have a party because this is the first in a long time that I have blogged. (mainly because of my father, who claims that this website gives my computer at home viruses, and makes are computer brake...puh...whatever...) So... I'm gonna go, because its hot, and I am now thouroughly bored with this. So Adios, Lindsay

I HATE SPANISH!!!!!

...but i love procrastinating!!...

im really annoyed. nothing in particular, well a few things are, but in general just eh. wow that sounds bitchy. sorry guys. -sarah

Yeah Study Hall

So, yes, I am in study hall right now, watching Joe, (who would like to add that he is sick and dying), take an online chemistry test, which is absolutely ridiculous because he should not even be at school today in the first place. He has the flu. And is sick. With the flu. Yeah fever. He DOES have a fever, no matter what he says otherwise. He is a liar. Lies, all lies. But I have to be nice to him because he is sick...or whatever. Ok, I'll be nice, I promise. Sweet as chocolate=me. Yeah chocolate. It is yummy. It helps fevers, especially football shaped chocolate...but they are all gone. Too bad. They are fun...yeah playing football. Anyways...I am distracting Joe from his test (on purpose) so I suppose that I should stop blogging and move far away to another computer...but I won't do the latter...so oh well. Bye for now!

YNatalieY

xanga is not working and i am in desperate need for it. :( i dont like this. oh well i suppose this will do. and she'll never read it, so it probably wont matter. but if of you who do read this reads this, ok that was kind of redundant but whatever, dont worry and dont ask me about it. i just need to talk for a while. ok? ok.

im so worried about dana. i really wish there was something i could do. mike went up there this weekend, and got the flu, so now she has to stay home from school this week to take care of him because he cant fly back home with a 104 degree temperature. and as stupid as this sounds, she cant just miss a week of school. i just dont like seeing people i care about hurting themselves. and no she's not physically in any danger, but still its just not good. and god. theres just so many other things that i just cant find the words to say. im just worried about her. and theres so much i wish i could do, but no possible way to do them. oh man. its just hard. i can hear it in her voice; she's not the same person. and yeah, ur gonna change after moving 600 miles away. but ur still the same you, deep down. i dont even hear the old dana in her voice anymore (if i ever hear her voice at all.) i wouldnt have even known it was her calling if it hadnt said "dana cell" on the screen of my fone. oh man o man. i just dont know what to do. i dont know if theres anything i can do. :-/

Mourning for someone I used to know...

Interruption

Just a quick post to say a couple of things:

- Joe is still sick...meh. I really wish he wasn't, he never gets sick.

- On the weekend of April 8, we are having an all out Gilmore Girls/Boy Meets World marathon, complete with Chinese food, pizza, chocolate, marshmallows, Cheez-its, lemonade, Coca Cola, and candy galore! Tacos, subs, and Applebee's carside to go will also make an appearance. It's going to be the biggest blowout of the season! You aren't invited, there will not be enough food for more than Nikki and me. Sorry all! When the parents are out of town, what are kids to do?

- PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE PLAY PRACTICE

YNatalieY

Weekend: Part One

This weekend has been amazing so far. Last night, at Evening of the Arts....wow. I got to read my brain paper, the one I wrote for lit class and posted in here awhile ago, and...well...I just got so many compliments and everything from people that I had never seen before, and it was just such nice praise that it made it one of those nights where you fall asleep with a smile on your face that lasts all throughout the night. All the artwork there was amazing, too. I wish that I had that kind of artistic ability...but I suppose that it was better bestowed upon people who hold art as their passion. After the Evening ended, everyone went up to Applebee's for Mr. Robert Goldfarb's b-day...quite an amusing time really. Joe and I ordered mozzarella sticks and mashed potatoes, the boys skipped down the restaurant, clapping and singing Rob a birthday song since the people who worked there wouldn't, and Rob even made a speech that reminded everyone that we were "gathered to celebrate" Rob's 17 birthday, lol. It was quite a speech, Rob, we all enjoyed it, to be sure. The best part though...lol...was definitely when Joe drove me back up to school to pick up my car. We were sitting in his car, talking, when this police officer drove up, got out of his car, and shone his flashlight at us through Joe's car window. He was really very nice...very redneck-ish, but nice...and after checking Joe's ID, he left. But it was really funny, definitely closed the evening nicely.

Today was also a good day...a family-ish day. Nikki and I went to see the movie Hitch and we went shopping, then we met our dad for dinner. Poor Joe is sick, so I went to see him and we watched Remember the Titans, which is an amazing movie and should be praised by all. I hope he gets better soon...he said he should be better by tomorrow, so...he will be. Trust me. Stupid Dierberg's supervisor gave him a hard time for being sick...he's never sick...sheesh. Anyways...

I am so deliriously excited for play practice tomorrow night...I cannot even tell you...Bye Bye Birdie is going to be such an amazing show, trust me. And after practice is girls' night! Ah and it's been so long overdue. I miss being so caught up in Sarah and Lindsay's lives...school has a way of helping us to lose track of each other, and we all have other responsibilities to give our attentions to. At least we are all doing stage crew...that will give us a chance to see each other every weekend for the next, um, forever. So that's why I'm ecstatic in an uncontainable way. Bring me the musical!

Natalie

so uh yeah to cute boys in black tshirts and black hats...mmm'mmm. lol. man o man. its baaad guys, i mean bad. it hasnt been like this in a long time...ehhhhh. lol.

anyway yeah thats about it. its cold so im gonna go to sleep...tomorrow night is going to be amazing, im so excited!!!

-sarah

As a child, you are taught to see the world in geometric shapes and primary colors...then you have to spend the rest of your life unlearning it...-Girls In Pants, by Ann Brashares...i adore this...

Some people are pigs....

But all around, I am very happy with my life and the people in it. It feels nice to smile.

Even when there are some stupid people on the fringes who like to try to mess things up.

It doesn't matter, though. I'm happy, and I intend to stay that way.

YNatalieY

last game tonight...it was kind of sad, in a way. theres only one more season of cheerleading left. one more try out. one more camp. its weird. cheerleading has just always been there. no matter what, we've always just had cheer, since the april of 8th grade. gosh i dont know. its just so scary to think about.

but thats about it. im kinda tired, and i cant really type with this wrist brace on (im wearing it cuz my wrist has been buggin me lately, so i wear it at night when im sleeping). so yeah im gonna head on out.

-sarah

ps. mrs potthast read us the most amazing poem ever today. wow. it was awesome. i soo want to quote it, but she doesnt want us to because she is going to try and get it published, which i completely respect, and so now i just have to wait and pray and hope that she DOES get it published so i can buy the book!!

just blogging to blog...skipped cheer tonight....oops. no i didnt skip it...i had to babysit...right. ok. i got my clogs and shirt in the mail today, i was really excited. and a bunch of crap from colleges ive never even heard of in iowa and stuff. whats in iowa? corn? lol jk. im sure iowa is amazing. just not where im gonna go to college. lol. so anyway. this has got to be the most pointless blog ever. i miss lindsay in the blog. she needs to come back. this is natalieLINDSAYsarah.blogspot.com, right? right. ok its unanimous (sp? yeah not even close) but yeah im gonna go i suppose...this is just senseless rambling.

-sarah

ps. was anyone else incredibly dissapointed with gilmore girls?

so i just did some stuff i probably shouldnt have done...haha oh well it was fun. im sooo amused. today was....interesting, to say the least. well it proved interesting around 7:30. up until then it pretty much sucked. things have kind of sucked lately. oh well whatever. im stealing this from nicholas sparks, from the extras on the dvd of The Notebook (which is amazing, by the way) We just have to deal with the downside, and let the upside take care of itself. Isnt that wonderful? that is my motto for right now. i like it a lot. but im gonna go...sleep...ahh how amazing. and for anyone that is interested, or heard otherwise, no i am not swimming this year. it was one of the hardest decisions ive had to make in a long time, but i think its gonna be for the best. 'night. -sarah

ps. natalie im sorry you didnt do well on your tests. :(

Valentine's Day Blues (Not Mine)

It's sad how many people hate Valentine's Day. Their excuses mainly fall in the "it's so commercialized" category, and of course everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but I still think that it's sad. Valentine's Day has a really nice premise to it, I think. Spending time with the person you love, or at least care about...it's sweet. It's an entire day to remind people to love one another, and an occasion to be creative and romantic about showing your feelings for one another. It's not just about flowers or candy or teddy bears...it's about feelings. I've loved Valentine's Day ever since I was little, when we got to bring in Valentines for the other kids at school. Mmm good good days. I hope other people get into the spirit too, and that I'm not just a hopeless romantic drifting alone in a sea of rose petals and Cupid's arrows. On another note: I am so excited for the four day weekend next weekend. Granted, I have to get through four more days of school, including an icky anatomy test tomorrow, to get to it, but I have a feeling that it will be worth it. I truly love the weekends, even though they tend to be so busy -- they're so much better than school, especially lately. There's so much going on! I feel like I'm being dragged in ten directions at once. I'm procrastinating at the moment...I really don't want to start studying anatomy, even though it's only over one measly section on the eye and vision. It's so small that I'll probably be able to read it at least three times tonight, plus get my lab done, even though that probably won't happen because I keep putting it off. Sigh. At least I have study hall tomorrow. Hopefully Megan comes in for that so that we can compare our lab sheets. I hope. Sarah, I am wondering what is wrong lately. I'm really sorry that I couldn't go to the cheerleading competition on Sunday, but I really had to study for those two tests, neither of which I did well on anyway today. I hope that you are ok. Call me if you need to talk, ok? I love you! Well, that's all for tonight everyone. Anatomy beckons threateningly. Ick. --Natalie

To Blog or Not to Blog

Blogger still won't let me change my font, or, in fact, use any of the style buttons at the top of the blog page. Weird. Meh, oh well, it could be worse. It could just try to keep me from blogging altogether. Which pretty much leads me to my thought for the day -- does blogging cause more trouble than it's worth? Forgive me for the whole one-paragraph structure of this blog, but I'm not allowed to enter for some reason. Anyways...well. To begin with, I think that everyone, before they begin blogging, must realize the most basic fact of blogging -- other people can read what you write. This is not a secret. Honestly. And people who choose to include their blog link in their AIM profiles KNOW that people they know will read what they have to say. So privacy is pretty much out of the question unless a person chooses not to tell anyone about their site, a good option for the people who believe that blogs are predominantly for ranting. We, as bloggers, can control what we write. We have the right to remain uncensored, but other people also have the right to take offense to what we say, so therefore, a caution: Either be private in your blogging, or be nice. I guess that blogging isn't for everyone. I adore it. I know I haven't kept up too well lately, but I truly love it. There are people that severely dislike it, and some that think that it causes tons of problems among friends by limiting face to face conversations. That is not the point of a blog; a blog is for thoughts, ideas, etc., and is not meant to serve as a complete alternate communication. Everyone, just...blog wisely, ok? Please. Ok, well, as I can't move on to another topic because Blogger is being mean, I'll just post another blog. Tootles. --Natalie

i dont feel good....horrible stomach ache...it just wont go away...ive had it since thursday...that cant be good...eh.

All Is Fair In Love and War

Well, Blogger wouldn't let me change the font or anything for this post, but I suppose I'll just have to deal with it. It's not important anyway. What IS important is this -- yesterday was an absolutely amazing day. I cannot even describe it. I haven't felt that truly happy in months. Sitting here, eating my chocolate-chip bagel and staring unseeingly at my history textbook, I hope, and somehow know, that that is how it will be for a long time. --Natalie

sorry...one last post....bit obsessive at the moment... complete cast at..

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0403508/

so i tried for like an hour to post these pictures from the traveling pants movie on here, but i cant. and im tired ant it gave me a headache so i give up. ill just give u the urls. its not as good, i know, and im sorry, but it pissed me off.

http://www.visionsofalexis.com/galleries/travelingpants/promo/01.jpg

http://www.visionsofalexis.com/galleries/travelingpants/promo/poster.jpeg

http://www.visionsofalexis.com/galleries/travelingpants/03.jpg

on this last one, i have no idea who that person in the middle is. it looks like a doll or something? no idea. and alexis bledel looks huge...no idea why.

me: luke, stop!

luke: no sissy, i want to vaccuum.

me: no luke let go of the plug. you're not allowed to vaccuum.

luke: come on sissy! i just got my lisense to vaccuum today!

where does he get these things?

is it possible to be tired even though all i did today was sleep? i am so excited for this weekend, and yet i dont want it to come because monday will suck so bad.

however...back to bed because i am exausted.

Snippets

I walked a lonely road

A road I didn't know

I didn't want to be left behind.

Thank God for you.

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Wonder Woman isn't perfect

And neither am I.

We run from perfection.

It's overrated, anyhow.

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There is a fine line between the risks we take to live life

And the risks we take to defy it.

Yeah risks.

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A Mother's Lessons

Stand up straight; there are too many people in this world with a Notre Dame complex.

Eat your vegetables, unless you can get away with hiding them under your napkin.

Listen to your elders, unless they are in any way ignorant or stupid; then, just pretend to listen.

Clean your room, and while you're at it, clean mine as well.

Do what your father says; he does not understand the concept of being wrong anymore than he understands the concept of control top pantyhose.

Don't be afraid to stand up to bullies; do, however, be prepared to run.

You are never too old to be bossed around or told to "Be Careful," and even if one day you do become too old, I won't notice.

Reach for the stars; if you don't succeed, I will pay NASA to take you there if that is what you truly want.

Listen to everything I say; next to the spirit in the sky, there is no higher authority.

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That is how I was raised, everyone. My mom is amazing. So are other people in my life. I am truly blessed.

Natalie

She hadnt just learned how to love this summer-- she had learned how to need. --The Second Summer of the Sisterhood

i love those books even more every time i read them.

Eyeballs, Auditions, and the Hardest Freaking Test EVER

Quite an easy title to explain today. I've been so busy all week...and last week...and I will be next week, come to think of it. Sheesh. I hate it when teachers lump together all of the tests into one or two weeks. It makes me want to cry. Blagh! But next Monday...wow...I will feel so relieved. I think. I sure hope so, anyways.

Ok, so, since I missed the anatomy test last week due to my illness, I had to make it up today. Big mistake. I really should have taken it Monday. The new one, the one he made especially for me since everyone else in the class had already gotten their's back, was the hardest test I've ever taken. Seriously. I think I knew about 40 out of 70, if I'm lucky. Really, it was horrible. I felt like crying afterward.

In my actual anatomy class, after taking a pop quiz on the eye diagram (yeah 100%...) we dissected a sheep eyeball. LOL. It was terribly gross...Megan has a phobia of eyes, and wouldn't watch. We had to wear goggles because apparently eyeballs squirt all kinds of grossness when one isn't ready. Eww.

And now for auditions...well, I hope it went well. I think it did. There were a couple of high notes that I just squeaked by with, but other than that, I think it was ok. Yeah Bye Bye Birdie...I really love that musical. I was in it when I was eleven, and wow...it was great. Know Rue McClanahan from Golden Girls? Well, she was Mae Peterson...it was hysterical. They better post the cast list on Friday...I will be a wreck all weekend if they hold it off until Monday. Seriously.

Well, time to eat! Yeah Chinese food!

Natalie

Stupid Post

Just a quick note from study hall. I just got done taking the easiest French quiz ever…trust me, it was really easy. I’m sorry I haven’t updated in awhile, I’ve been really busy this weekend. The Student Council dance was the stupidest thing ever….we are NOT having one next year, under ANY circumstances. Sheesh. Next weekend is going to be amazing. After the ACT Saturday morning, of course.

Off to study for the French test tomorrow. Tootles.

i feel really obnoxious and annoying tonight. im sorry if i annoyed anybody... -sarah PS what if the answer that you want isnt in the quesiton that you state? -Cohead and Cambria. and i find it incredibly weird that that song is by them...but thats just me being weird-psycho-analysis-over-analyzing-everything me. so yeah. PPS im about to go watch Spiderman. James would be proud. (ok so i probably wont get through most of it...just enough until i fall asleep...but oh well, its the thought that counts, right? PPPS YEAH FULL SCORP(IAN) WITH NO FRONT SPOT!!!

Similar Feelings

I'm sorry that you're feeling like that, Sarah. You know that I'm always here, right? Even when I'm sick...which we both know that I am. Whenever you need to talk, no matter what time of the day or night, I am here.

Sickness is still quite present. The only reason I am going to school is because I have to be there for the cheerleading squad and because I need to make up so much work. Puh.

Death to cheerleading. It's...almost not even worth it anymore.

I wish people would stop telling me what to do, no matter how good their intentions are.

Sleep...sounds so amazing and unattainable right now. I wish I could drink a large bottle of sleep...mmm.

Well off to study for anatomy and then down some cold tablets. I'm absolutely thrilled.

Natalie

P.S. Surprisingly, I've been in a pretty good mood today. Odd. Nothing about today was even remotely good. Interesting.

I HATE...

• feeling sick
• crying
• cheerleading
• that i hate cheerleading
• stupid people who make everything so difficult
• people who talk and talk and talk but dont really say anything
• back aches
• muscle spasms
• being alone
• feeling sad
• wanting to cry
• having no ambition
• that swim team is going to start
• my friends not doing swim team
• wanting to sleep forever and not being able to
• wanting to curl up in a ball and have everything go on around me
• feeling left out
• working
• having nobody notice me
• being plain
• wanting to help, but being brushed aside instead
• hair growing and roots showing really bad
• my skin
• the random spasm in my left shoulder
• amy bugging me ot get off the computer
• homework
• algebra
• people being assholes, then expecting everything to be normal
• being called a bitch (although it was really funny.)
• having an attitude
• saying stupid things
• frustration
• 2 hours of sleep
• not knowing what might happen
• faking smiles
• wanting someone, anyone.
• being annoyed
• trying and failing
• reminders
• having so many thoughts to express, but not finding the words to let them out
• posting every little peeve like this for everyone to read....and yet i still do it.

-sarah

Spirit Week, an Imaginary Left Hook, and the Dakota Fanning Marathon

Before I sink into an explanation of the above title, I would like to comment a bit on two things: the rest of the Pro-Life trip, and my ongoing illness.

The Pro-Life march went well...it wasn't as cold that day as it had been the day before, and there were plenty of interesting people to look at and things to take pictures of. Unfortunately, I forgot my camera on the bus, so Joe let me use his digital camera and he carried a sign. I got to carry the sign for awhile, but I got tired of it quickly, and returned it to him. Some of the people in our group made up a chant that they gladly shouted for the benefit of everyone around, oh, and another highlight! One man was wandering around, dressed like Jesus...no shoes or anything. Craziness.

The bus ride home was considerably shorter; we got back to St. Barnabas only about an hour and a half after our itinerary stated that we would. I will say again that it is impossible to compare this trip to the two previous ones...it was so different...but it was good in its own way and I'm really glad that I went.

As for my illness, well...either I'm truly sick, or I'm allergic to cheerleading; either answer would make perfect sense. Now, I might be vain sometimes...admittedly...but it sure brings a person down a few notches when everyone at school makes one of the following comments:

a) "You don't look so good today."

b) "Are you on cold medication?"

c) "You look really pale. No, I mean really pale. And when I say pale, I'm not talking Vogue-I'm-pale-because-I'm-cool-and-I-can-get-away-with-it, no, I'm talking vampire-before-I-suck-someone's-blood-pale. You should really go home."

Honestly, I have never had so many of these, er, "compliments" in my life.

And on top of it all, I have to deal with continuous ignorance, idiocy, and all around bitchiness from certain members of an organization of which I am an unwilling member. It really WAS a lot of fun before, as Sarah said. It was. And somethings are still cool...ahem...who has a full scorpion without a front spot? Yay for Sarah and Caroline and Jen and me. But other parts, well...that's where the "imaginary left hook" comes in. I wish I had a real left hook, but then again, I'd probably get in trouble for its overuse. Then again, Leebs did mention something about enjoying seeing some of the cheerleaders play Russian Roulette. Ahh it was a classic, almost blissful statement. Sigh...ah, ok, my anger has subsided for a bit. Until tomorrow morning, at least. I told Leebs I wasn't cheering today because of my sickness...the only reason I'm going to school at all is so that I don't miss more tests and to be there for my stunt group because we're rehearsing our big routine for Friday's pep rally, which is coming along rather crappily, I might add. Meh I really don't need this.

Speaking of the pep rally Friday...this Spirit Week is running along an interesting pathway. Pajama Day, a Monday tradition, was followed with Camo Day...an interesting choice on the part of the Student Council, and I'm allowed to say that because I am a member. But, as one representative pointed out, lots of the guys who never partake in any spirit activity showed up today decked out in, well, what they usually wear. Ha, I suppose someone had a good idea.

Now for what was undoubtedly the most confusing part of my title for this evening: The Dakota Fanning Marathon. Sadly, such a grand title masks a slight disappointment of a story. If anyone watched much of the lead-up to the Golden Globes, they might know that Kathy Griffin was making a continuous joke about young Dakota Fanning being in rehab (note to the slow people -- she's not!) Well, tell that to my sister and her friends...they are having a marathon dedicated to Dakota, in remembrance of her good days. Yes, they know it was just a joke...and yet...they continue on. I have in front of me a list of movies that they are renting for the occasion.

Somehow, I think that mental illness runs somewhat strongly in my family.

Just kidding.

Actually, I'm not kidding at all, I just want you to think that I am.

Or am I lying?

Or is this the lie?

Ok, I'm sooo done.

Off to do my monumental amounts of homework, perhaps take a nap. Yeah, right. Gilmore Girls is on the horizon...and it's going to be good :-D

Everyone read Girls in Pants: The Third Summer of the Sisterhood. On second hand, all girls read it. And boys, if you're brave.

Tootles.

Natalie

so many things have been scrambling through my head. its all because of a book. lol. im so weird. i have the weirdest mind ever, i swear. but i cant stop thinking about this book. its my obsession of the moment. man o man. i heart natalie for introducing me to this series! ahh.

so yeah. my brain is a mess. i keep thinking of natalie's brain essay, and mine is a huge messy desk right now, baring a striking resemblence to mrs. potthasts at school. scary, huh? just....everything. its so overwhelming. and im so tired (serves me right for staying up til 3 AM finishing the book.) and i dont want to cheer. i hate it so much. people make me so mad. i love the sport, but there are certain people who make me want to scream. loud. and then punch them. repeatedly. its so horrible that two people can suck all the fun out of something i used to love so much. i hate it. eh....off to chemistry homework...damn homework...

-sarah

i am in love with this quote... you cant erase the past. you cant even change it. but sometimes life offers you the oppurtunity to make it right. -where do you think? Girls in Pants: The Third Summer of the Sisterhood by Ann Brashares. i heart Bee. i want that to happen to me...just in general...nobody get any ideas.