Death to the Computer...!!!

I'm back, my computer officially died for forever. But my daddy fixed it so I'm excited yay!! Well its storming out really bad right now, I'm frightened. eeks..!! Um... the first week of official school is almost over, and going into our second week I'm not so thrilled. However it is nice, that today and tomorrow we get out at noonish because of the heat! So that makes it a little less unbearable. Woo hoo!! Um... today, natalie picked me up for school and when we were walking in we learned that we get out today at noonish! So that right there made my day!! So go to all the regular classes, lit-good, french-funny, faith-retarded, and chemistry-wow. I sat right in the middle of the two people who I thought could barley stand to look at me. shall I dare say there names, Leslie and Elly. Well I did, and it turned out to be not so much a bad thing. Leslie and I are once again learning how to talk to one another, which to me is an awesome miracle thing that has occured. I'm truly amazed. However, it might not be the most in depth conversation that I've ever had with the girl, its a conversation, which is more than I could have ever asked for. Now I know, I don't want to be the best of friends with her(neither do I expect to ever become), and its not because of what has happened or how hurt I have felt. It is simply because of the fact that I have grown apart from her, there is no longer that special bond that we had anitially had with eachother. That has been far gone. No one had understood our friendship, and I beleive neither of us did too. I beleive that when we were friends. These last couple years. We both needed eachother, someone to talk to about what was going on in our lives, someone who we could cry to, and someone who we could, more along the lines share our lives with. And that was amazing. We both learned from eachother, how each of us could do whatever we wanted to do with our lives. We found ourselves through eachother. I realized what my full potential as a person was, and I truly beleive that that is true also for her. We both knew and understood how different we became to be from one another. But our friendship started, before we knew that, we were both in gradeschool and extremely shy. Now that that is not so much true for either of us. We found friends that could truly understand us as individuals, and have therefore grown apart from eachother. I dont want to say, that I don't need her anymore. Cause I think it sounds mean. But truly, I don't. I have foundmyself, my own personality and beleifs. And I have amazing people to share that with. And so does she. People that can relate to her more than I ever could. And I hope she is happy. Because I have found people that accept me for who I am. And unlike in gradeschool, I have found that one of the easiest and most best things that you can do for yourself is to just be yourself, accept yourself. And now that I have done that, I have to say that I am the happiest that I have been for a long time. Thank you Leslie, for helping me discover that. Wow, um.. and Sarah your new house is amazing!! Thank you for letting us comeover!!! And Joe the Anatomy book, EEKS!!! Natalie, heh! Tim, your phones broken!! Love you guys!! And um...yes patheticness of my music... Ashlee Simpson... Oh well...heres a part of her song... "Everythings cool now, Oh my life is good, I got more than anyone should, Oh my life is good, and the past is in the past..." ~!~Lindsay~!~