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i found out some...interesting news today. and i dont like it. im really shocked by it, actually. its just...different. nothing i ever thought would happen. or even could dream of possibly happening. honestly, i dont truly understand it. and it hurts. i think in a way its my fault. and i feel so bad about that. i wish there was something i could do to change it...but im really not sure if there is. so if your reading this, im sorry, ok? on another note. cheerleading wasnt bad today. our stunt group is amazing. caroline is probably the best flyer on our squad. and i refuse to base laura. whatever happens, its my fault. its definately not because of her arching and not staying steady....but whatever. i give up. im not gonna worry about it anymore. im just not gonna do it (try to base her, that is.) and i talked to dana today. she is doing good. not pregnant, and on birth control. so yay for that. her family is completely eff-ed up, but theres nothing anybody can do about that. and this is completely random, but i started running today. im gonna do it every day after school. i have got to get in shape for swimming. im sooooo out of shape its not even funny. so i figure a little cardio every day to build up my lungs and stuff is a good thing. cuz theres this thing, with swimming, where you have to hold you breath, and having weak lungs tends to hinder that process. so yeah. haha wow im stupid. but thats ok, cuz thats why you all love me, right? Right. lol. ok well im done. *~SaraH~* ps...joe, practice your aim and get it in the hole...ok? (get you minds out of the gutter people...im talking about a banana and the trash can!)