wow lindsay...read my comment, ok? i dont even know where to go....things are...good right now. first time in a long time, but theres definately a real smile on my face this time. im mailing my first letter to jake tomorrow. (well the first since i got his florida address) so im just crossing my fingers that he writes back. and not because i need it, but because i want it. ok that was phrased badly. forget i said it. i just want a friendship with him really badly. i know there is no possible way for anything more, and thats fine- im completely ok with that. but i want a friendship. him being in my life was awesome, and i dont want to lose that. i want to keep talking and stay close? connected? hell i dont know. but stay talking. i dont want it to just dissapear. on a slightly less serious note. this weather is reeking (reaking?) havoc on my skin. its sooo dry and i hate it. im slathering moisturizer on as we speak. ok maybe not. but i will be, as soon as i go upstairs to go to sleep. i love snow (well, to an extent..when i dont have to drive in it)and love xmas, and especially when those two are put together. and i even love the winter clothes. scarves and cute jeans and fun tops and jackets. fuun stuff. but sometimes its just too much, and the coldness sucks, and i wanna rip out the miniskirts and get a tan. ya know? lol MAN i am such a girl. so yeah. i want to invent a machine where i can control the weather, you know, like on that one stupid disney movie? ok moving on... not really im kind of done... so thats it. good night! heres a quote i put in the comment to lindsay...i know its kind of like, 'well duh' but i kind of like it... i would rather live in a good that's sometimes bad, than a bad that's never good. *~SaraH~*