Puh Puh Puh! And....Puh!

I hate: - crying uncontrollably for over an hour - wanting to throw things, doing so, and breaking a lamp - feeling like this will never end - wanting so much to be happy...and then being happy for, like, a night...and then BAM! back to this nothingness again - asparagus - causing other people pain - feeling physical, mental, and spiritual pain all at the same time - the feeling that I really need to get away from all of this for awhile...and then trying to do that...and getting sucked right back into it again - the fact that I'm posting this in the blog, where I know everyone will read it and worry...but don't, please. Nothing new is troubling me. It's the same old song...but, God, it gets old and hurts more than ever, even now. Now that I've gotten all of that out, my intent is to focus on having a good evening. I know that I will be able to, as long as I can tear myself away from, well, every single thing that I am thinking about right now. Tootles! And yay for December 7! Natalie