Pissed off.

Yeah I'm not in the greatest of moods right now. I'm not actually quite sure how I got to be here. I guess just a few things happened today that just totally threw me. It just amazes me how little people are open to new and not so bad of things. Ahh that just makes me really angry. There are a lot of ignorant people out there in our world, sadly. Erghh that makes me so angry. And I'm sorry if I might sound like I'm over exaggerating everything. I just happen to be very passionate about a few things, and when anyone says anything about them (in a bad sense, without having any just reasons) it just really pisses me off. Ahhh especially when they are supposed to be your teachers. Well that was just a little thing that pissed me off today. Mucho grande more happened. But sadly I dont feel like elaborating. It just hasnt been a good day starting this morning and then coming home from school ill. Yeah. And then just lately, I have this feeling inside of me that I am just plain stupid. I firmly beleive that I dont belong in the classes that I am in. I feel like I dont measure up to anyone in any of my so called "smart" classes. I often have a feeling of that I am quite inferior to all of my friends. Matter of factly I do every single time I am with them. I hate that so much. I just feel plain stupid. I dont feel smart enough for them. And everytime I think I might have done well on a test or paper, I just get it returned to find out I yet have not surpassed even my own goals. I just dont feel worthy of even being measured next to my friends or really anyone. I hate that feeling, it seriously is the worst in the world. But I have tried to fix it, but it doesnt work. Just day after day without fail, it just happens again and again, my goals continue to be surpassed by everyone except myself. I dont know how and I dont know why. But I do know I dont like it. I will try my hardest to become the best student I can be, but sometimes I just feel like giving up because I know I will never ever begin to compare to anyone. I just hate so much that I am not as smart or as intelligent. I hate not being good enough for other people, but ever more than that I hate not being good enough for me. All right well I'm done with my rant. I'm out. *Lindsay*