Christmas break thus far...

So far christmas break is going fairly well; however, it started off rocky... It is soooo oh sooo nice to be at home, and have nothing school related to be stressed out about. I am oh so enjoying that :) And hanging out with old friends is always so nice too!!! However, I have yet to see my natalie.....tomorrow hopefully! Lately, I have been second guessing a lot of things in my life, but things are finally starting to look better. Everyone around seems to have these perfect relationships with their boyfriends...they call everynight and have hour long conversations, or their engaged, or thinking about marriage, or their boyfriends just seem to worship the ground they walk on. What was it two weeks ago I imagine it was, I talked to Sean on saturday night, but then did not talk to him until the following friday, after I had already arrived at home. I will admit several times that week I found myself second guessing that relationship...I began to wonder if truly he cared about me as much as I found myself to care for him. Many people around me were amazed that I was allowing myself to put up with someone who did not talk to me everyday, or many people began to tell me that I shouold not stand for such a relationship. However I stood my ground by allowing myself to tell all of these people that it was OUR decision, not just his to not talk every night... Even while I said this to people, I had to convince myself of it also. I tried to tell mysef that it was OK and the RIGHT thing to do for sean and my relationship. It was tough. I will admit many times I found myself crying myself to sleep because I was so utterly confused. I didn't know if it was OK that I did not talk to sean everynight. I sat in my dorm room and every night without fail Pat would call Leslie... and everynight they would talk for hours about anything and everything. It was hard because many of those nights I had not talked to Sean for several days. I am still searching for that answer......if whether or not it is okay not to talk to my boyfriend every night........however for now I am OK with it.....I am happy being at home with him. We seriously do have the best times when we are together. I love his sarcastic attitude and the way he makes me feel when I am with him. He makes me feel beautiful. He makes me feel special. He really is a WONDERFUL guy! And I am proud to say I love him.