Letting Go

Today I just really wanted to talk about this line I read in my downstairs book, which I finished today, but before I tell about it, I should probably explain about what I am talking about. During the school year, when I don't have a lot of time to read, I usually end up reading two books at a time; one book I only read when I'm upstairs, the other when I'm downstairs. I only ever read a few pages at a time, except on the weekends. Then I end up reading whatever book that happens to be on the level that I happen to be settled on. You can laugh all you want -- it's just one of my things. Anyways, my downstairs book lately has been Eve Green, by Susan Fletcher. It was really good, in a lyrical way, and one line on page 280 really helped me to realize what I was going to blog about today. The line went like this: "Hold the past up into the wind, unclose your hand, and let it go." That is what I need to do, and what I am doing. This weekend has been wonderful, unexpected, craziness of the world, and I am really happy about it. I wish I could tell you when I felt more free...but honestly, I don't even know when. I really don't. I just feel really at ease, even with this week o' death coming at me...if you really want to know my hectic schedule, just read Sarah's entry. I really have a feeling that I will be sick of cheerleading by the end of this week. Games every night but Wednesday, practice every day...puh...and I have to endure people on power trips every single day. If any teacher even thinks of springing a last minute test on me this week....well...all I can say is, "Beware of my wrath." But other than that...homecoming comes up next weekend...and Friday is my birthday! 17!!! I am pleasantly excited about it. But it does make me sad that I won't be able to wear my favorite Sweet 16 necklace anymore...oh well...I shall pass it on to Lindsay for the remainder of her 16th year, and then I will give it to Nikki when she turns 16. Hehe being 17 will be really good...somehow, it feels a lot older than 16...probably because of how idealic 16 sounds, and when it's over, it feels as if so many things have been learned that it's hard not to be older. I am going to try my best to keep being optimistic for the rest of the week...it shouldn't be too hard, really...and even though I complain about cheering a lot...I don't think it will overshadow the goodness and happiness of what this week leads up to. Happy Birthday to Matt this week too...his b-day is on Saturday! Yay! Yay friends! Yay farm boy! (Double cheers!) Yay life! Love, Peace, and an AMAZING game by the San Francisco 49ers.... YNatalieY