Only one...

So i came to the realization today, well actualy it was the other day- ive been thinking about it lately though, that i am pretty much the only one of my friends that does not have a boyfriend. its a weird feeling, let me tell you. almost lonely. and i dont like to complain about these things, i really dont, i just cant help but notice. and what else is a thing like this blog good for other than just stating stupid stuff like that? but yes, it is a very odd feeling. left out in a way? no, that's not a good way of putting it. i can't explain it. i think lonely is a good term. yes thats it. im trying to be happy, i really am. im just not. and maybe 'happy' isnt a good way of describing it. its more of just not satisfied. just blah. and it's not the whole 'no boyfriend' thing that makes me 'not happy', its just a lot of things. i've never been the girl who always has to have a boyfriend. i definately dont need a guy to make me happy. i think ive only had maybe 3 actual declared boyfriend/girlfriend boyfriends before. maybe even two. hell i dont know. i just cant help this feeling. i just see everyone together and happy and comfortable with each other, and i cant help but think that i wish i had that. and then that makes me kind of angry because ive never ever needed that before. and who knows why that its now that im being like this. i have no idea, and if someone understands, please explain it to me because id like to know. it almost like im missing out on something, even though i dont exactly know what that something is. so there, that's my rant for the day. Anyway, today was slow. i slept in and my mom took me to go do the drug test for walgreens. i can honestly say that peeing in a cup is disgusting, and that i could never be the ppl that work there. EW. then we went to the bank and i cashed my paycheck. i mostly just vegged at the house and watched the Olympics. i baby-sat for my old neighbors. we watched the men's gymnastics team final. lol. silver medal! yay! oh and i am pissed that ian thorpe beat michael phelps in the 200 free. PUH!!! thorpe isnt even supposed to be there! he freaking false started in the trials! the only reason he is there is because the original australian swimmer that actually QUALIFIED backed down. that is not even fair. ian thorpe didnt even swim in the trials, at all! he jumped off the block! grr. definately not fair. =( oh and i decided that i want the job of the guy who is always on tv on nbc commentating between events, like saying whats next and reminding ppl who won and stuff. thatd be amazing! after i marry michael phelps of course. haha jp...or am i? ;) oh and congrats to the japanese men's gymnastics team, they did so good, and won the gold medal! (cuz of course they are all going to be checking our blog to make sure we said 'good job') tomorrow is the women's team final. i hope they do good! but im doubting it. from what i saw yesterday in the qualifiers, they werent lookin to hot. oh well. sometimes i miss gymnastics, but then i remember how scared i was of the beam and i miss it less. wow so could i have written a little bit more? possibly...but lets not find out... quote... what happened to miss independent? -kelly clarkson toodles. *~SaraH~*